Preparing a space for Clara has been an important part of my personal processing about all we’ve learned in the past few months. As I shared when we put the crib together shortly after her diagnosis, these tangible acts have been a way for me to feel like I am slowly putting her together, and a reminder that we have prepared a place for her with the optimistic anticipation that we will bring her home to enjoy this space. During a time when there’s not much I can do for her, putting her room together has felt like some small act of offering on my part.
I’ve had ideas about what I wanted a nursery to look like since before Clara was ever even conceived. My ideas have changed some, but this fabric I chose back in the summer when I knew I was pregnant, couldn’t tell anyone yet, and was too sick to do much besides surf the internet between trips to the toilet. I knew I wanted it to be gender neutral, regardless of the gender, so it could be used again for a sibling someday. And although I’m tickled pink about having a girl, I never wanted lots of pink or flowers or lace. I’ve always been a color person, and the bright and bold colors that we’ve chosen to fill Clara’s room seem fitting for a girl whose name means, “bright, clear.” It already brings me joy to go and sit in there; I hope it brings her the same joy as she grows up in it.
A nursery is often more the reflection of the
parents mother than it is the child, and I suppose our room is no exception. My passion for children’s literature is a natural extension of my career, but a love I hope we will pass along to Clara, too. The artwork in her room was carefully selected from some of Robert’s and my favorite children’s books. Soon Clara will know these stories, too. We can't wait to read them (and many, many more) to her.
Here it is.
|Changing table/dresser and glider|
|The fully assembled crib, complete with bedding|
|Her bookshelf, with just a few of the many, many titles she'll have to choose from thanks to eight years of her mother teaching elementary school.|
|The big bright windows that fill this room with glorious sunlight (and the blackout curtains that I hope keep her sleeping soundly in spite of it!)|
|A little handmade bunny we bought in Ireland, hoping we'd soon have a baby to give it to.|
|The view as you walk in the room|
|The view from the closet corner|
|The view from the glider corner|
|The view from the crib/window corner|
Now for your children’s literature quiz. Can you name the books for all of these illustrations?
I love it here. My heart is filled with peace and joy when I spend time in this room. I couldn’t be happier with how it’s all turned out. Mission accomplished.